3/8 done!

15 weeks today!

Here are some things I noticed this past week"

• I had to buy some shirts that fall a little bit longer on my body. Not a bigger size, but just a longer style! I was tugging at 2 of my "work" shirts, feeling they were too short
• Shortness of breath and tiredness going up two flights of stairs to pee
• Finally starting to decrease Zofran w/o vomiting
• Ketchup is a wonderful thing!
• My administrator at work is a bozo. This is not the first time I realized this, but I was reminded of it

Stay tuned! My intention for this week is to try and exercise twice during the work week, even if it is just for 15 or 20 minutes at a time. I spent so much time lying around, that I feel kind of creaky and hope exercise will help. I will keep you posted. I am also hoping to keep bringing back more previously averted foods.

We shall see...

Woo hoo

Went to the doctors on Wednesday and I gained another pound. I never thought I would be so excited about something so previously insignificant. The babies heart rate was 155. The doctor said he could feel the smallest bump and that that bump was the baby. Even though he put my hand in the right space I just felt like... well like me. I couldn't feel it but then again I've never felt a baby that small before in my own body! Hearing the beat is still the most awesome thing. It gets me every time!

The thyroid functioning test was repeated and I a learned that I am not a carrier of the cystic fibrosis gene. I also learned that I am O- which means that I will need to take some medicine later on in the pregnancy so that if the babies blood comes in contact with mine, I don't produce antigens.

The best part? I don't have to go back for a whole month! Maybe after that appointment the sushi place next to the doctor's office will actually be open and I will be able to get some avocado maki!

35% Done!

14 weeks today. Greg said if I said 7/20 of the way done that the fraction would confuse people. We are both very eager to meet our little someone.

Even though the midwife said that I could go back to work, I am still having stomach pains and extremely low energy. But every once in a while hunger continues to make surprise appearances. I am also used to operating at 110 mph most of the time, so being low energy and tiring easily is relatively new for me.

Tomorrow I go back to work for the first time since 2010 started. It has been 3 weeks, which isn't too long for most people, but an eternity for the under 5 set. I still think it will be a challenging day and probably a challenging week. I am hoping that is bearable and that I am able to keep up with regular eating, keep the vomiting at bay and not lose any of the weight I worked so hard to gain.

My coworkers are funny people. Not funny haha, but funny odd and possibly in need of social skills training. At least two people have emailed me tasks to do while I have been home or asked if I could do those tasks for them when I returned. My principal emailed me and said nothing except "your class misses you terribly" He didn't address the email or even bother to sign his name. One person sent me a get well card with a handwritten message of "I miss seeing you in the bathroom". "Get well soon" usually works pretty well. And really, if you know someone who is out sick for an extended period of time, DO NOT email them tasks to do. Okay, I am going to try to keep the rant to a minimum.

Enjoy the remainder of the weekend.

+3!

We went to our appointment today with the midwife. I am so excited to have gained three measly pounds! But still, gaining anything is way better than losing anything at this point in the game. So hooray! My blood pressure went up a little too, which is also good because it got really low for a while.

It is also helping that I haven't vomited in a whole week. I don't want to jinx myself here but I am hoping that the vomit free weeks can continue.

I still am nauseous through much of the day and I still tire easily, but I am going to try to go back to on Monday. I am a little nervous about that since I have missed three full weeks. If I am not vomiting though and I gained a little weight, I have to at least try. If working doesn't work, I see the doctor on Wednesday. If I suddenly start vomiting again or lose weight, I am sure that he will write me out when I see him then.

Finally, I have to some blood work repeated. One of the thyroid functioning tests came back on the lower than normal side. It could just be from the excessive vomiting and lack of eating that was happening when the original tests were done, but they want to make sure.

Keep the prayers coming!

Tuning the corner??!?!?!

Yesterday, I had this strange feeling on and off all day. Maybe you are familiar with the sensation. My stomach was rumbling and actually craving food. Hopefully, that is a sign of more good days to come, a little bit of weight gain and the beginning of finally kicking the first trimester suckiness in the butt!

Stay tuned!

So, How are you

I am 13 weeks pregnant today. It has been a rough start, a really rough and somewhat traumatic start thus far. I am hoping and praying that the second semester is less intense.

Because it has been rough and I have great friends and family, many people are really concerned. Sometimes though, I am feeling so stinking lousy that I just don't want to talk about my health or how I am feeling. Sometimes, I want to hear about other people and their issues. I care about people and what is happening with them and sometimes I just need to be distracted from myself.

So here is a synopsis.

I have lost a significant amount weight. I was extremely disheartened this past Friday to go to the midwife and learn that I have lost even more weight even though I am really trying to eat every two hours. Trying to eat every two hours when you really could care less about food is a challenge of and in itself. Finding things to eat that are appealing (or at least not nausea-inducing) is another challenge. But I was doing it and I have the food logs to prove it. I also was sad to learn that I am continuing to burn through my stored fat.

So I am out of work, still. I have been out of work since the end of December, then hit school vacation week and haven't gone back in the new year. This is very hard for me too. Some parts of me understand that this is what I need to do for myself and my child. Other parts feel like I am failing at my job, like I am letting countless people down by not going. I mean if I can't function enough to get dressed or get off the couch, how am I going to go and survive a work day? Also, I need to gain some pounds and probably burn a good amount of calories in a typical work day so.... (When I wore my pedometer to work last year on a typical day, it logged close to 11,000 steps!)

Anyway, the midwife advises me to continue to seek out high calorie foods and to continue to eat and drink as often as possible. I suck at gaining weight. Some of you may remember when I tried to gain weight before my wedding by eating an absurd amount of soy ice cream. She also recommended that I have a phone consultation with a nutritionist. Lots of rest and eat what ever is appealing. I have to go back next Friday so warm thoughts or prayers are greatly appreciated.

Oh, despite my struggles, the baby seems to be okay. On ultrasound 2 weeks ago it was about the right size and this past Friday we could hear the heartbeat. The heartbeat sounded amazingly strong, quick and regular. Go Baby!

That is how I am and how we are doing. If you try to talk to me and I am vague or trying to change the subject, don't take it personally. I will try to post updates here often so check back regularly.