Anxious

The big anatomy scan is coming up. Unfortunately, we booked the appointment right after the start of the new year, so it has been on my mind for a while. As our appointment gets closer, time seems to go even slower. I think I have spent more time online on "birth boards" this time around than the last. Originally I wanted to see if other people were as sick as I was and how they were managing. Now it just seems to fuel my anxiety as I read about some of the things that have gone awry with the health of the mother or the baby.

I have to remember that I am doing the best that I can to take care of myself and the little uterine passenger. I have to keep reminding myself that I have done this once already and that somehow I did manage to bring a beautiful healthy person into this world. I hope and pray that I am able to do it again.

18 weeks tomorrow.

Weeks 14 and 15

Progress is slow. Time is even slower, I feel like I have been pregnant forever already and we have not even reached the half way mark yet.

Progress:

• At the appointment last week with my midwife, their scale showed I gained 4 pounds. I was nervous about gaining 4 lbs in two weeks but she said its fine since I am still just trying to gain back all that was.
• Tapering the IV hydration. Down to just half a liter a day
• Also trying to taper the IV zofran, with the goal of getting this thing out of my arm
• Spending time with Madison again during the day so Greg can work
• Some creative energy is returning as well
• Was able to make it out of the house and to my sister in law's baby shower all by myself

Struggles:

• Still many food aversions and smell sensitivities
• Heartburn
• Finding a comfortable position for resting/sleeping
• Drinking water throughout the day
• Shortness of breath ( already?!?!)
• Round ligament pain
• Low energy on a good day, down right exhausted most of the time

Random other things:

• Realized that the next time I see Madison's pediatrician for a well child check, I will have another baby with me
• Really want to be somewhere warm so I can swim. The idea of gym pool sounds repulsive to me right now (when the warm weather comes they take the roof off which makes it more bearable)